2003-09-07
summers
another pretty day with recognition of cuts caused by fictitious cats with razor sharp claws and a great talent for spelling
i wish we'd done it more in summer..
but i wish i'd done a lot of things this summer that i never did
and i spose there are plenty more summers, and plenty more boys to kiss, and plently more pretty faces to look into when theyre lying on top of you, naked, kissing yr face and whispering sweet things into yr ear so they get a quick fuck
ive had the summer of dreams when i was sweet sixteen, losing my virginity one summer afternoon while my sister was at school and my mom was at work, never feeling so much pain at once, but also feeling like this was so perfect and could last forever..
ive had the summer of brokenhearts when seventeen seemed like a doomed age and i would never stop crying salty tears, sitting on college toilets with the doors locked shut crying my heart and soul into pieces of tissue that couldnt even hold a tear, people knocking on the door, asking are you okay...? and not actually being concerned
and you could call this the summer of sex when all i did was fuck my best friend for hours and days at a time, good sex that left me breathless and finding that i have a huge inability to tell the truth about the feelings that i have..
and so there are plently more summers to be had, boys to kiss, and people to sleep with, this summer can be counted as a good one, i just wish its going to stay this way...
thissidedown at 10:37 p.m.